You were.

I am somebody's reason to smile.
Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 12:53 AM

"You said why must wait for you to text me, why not I text you first?
Each time I mention lets stop contacting, who always contacted who first?

You said I'll be better with them than seeing you frown?
Did you see my heart laughing happily or it's just a mask?"


What's the fcuking point of trying so many ways to
let you see what really went wrong and all you do/say wrong is me me me!
Wind back times when we quarrel, who was really wrong?
(I'm not trying to point my fingers at you. I'm in the wrong sometimes too)
Who was the one apologising?
I hope you'll sit down calmly and think.
Stop pushing everything little faulty in our relationship to me.
Relationship is about two.
You only tried to think of what to talk back, out win me.
What's the point? Will you get any prizes?
Or isit it'll make you feel better after I apologised?
Love is an unfair thing.
I don't mind apologising to wrong things I never done,
I just hope in your heart, you will know you did wrong.
And not being happy over thinking I apologised and you are not in any wrong.
You want people to understand your feelings,
but firstly, you have to understand how others feel.
Stand into mines and yours shoes, sort out that scene's situation.
Think of how to solve it. I bet our relationship will be way up high.
I can gurantee you this.
I will know my wrong, I will change.
I will never ever make the same mistakes, quarrel over and over again.
I know, if it happens over and over again,
one of us will get tired and sick of facing the oppsite.
Start to avoid and that's how a relationship comes to an end very soon.
I don't want. I wanna do my very best.
I don't want history to repeat.
But, I need your cooperation too. Will you?
After every quarrel, I will keep on thinking back.
Whatever I have said or done, isit right or wrong,
did my words or actions hurt you.

Right now, I just wanna apologise to you.
For avoiding you so suddenly.
I know I didn't consider about your feelings before I made the decision.
I was upset, you didn't text me in the morning.
I'm happy, you text me when you ended work.
Just wanna explain to you over again.
I wanted you to text me first, not because I forgotten to text you.
I just wanted to know if you missed me today.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 11:59 PM


My biological brother came back from Bangkok with this huge love!
Suppose to fetch him from the airport since it was my and his off day.
Was catching 2012 @ Plaza Sing, Mom kept rushing us to come back.
The show ended, I was all tears. So touching and kinda sad ):
Ring up my mom, ask her which terminal, so said she don't know -.-
There's more than one arrival hall at the terminals lo!
Till brother reply my text, my battery already went flat.
So went to meet Siah and Jason.
Headed down to Loyang Dua Pek Gong.
They pray, I eat ice-cream ;)

Roadshow was one word "BORED!!"
Oh, I'm so excited.
Pay is coming real soon!! *Cheers~
I actually worked for one month already!
Let's welcome my sweetest love, Sylvia Chee to City Chain~
She's starting work tmr.
So sad, she located different outlet from me ):
But at least we can take Lrt together.
We're in the same company. heh~ Be positive.
Right baby?

I've changed my mind.
I don't wish to give up yet.
It's surprising, I forgive-d.
I just learned, holding on even it hurts so badly.
I never experience it before,
before it happens, I'm already hiding.
Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 3:26 PM


I never thought I'll walk till this far.
I guess, I'm not confused.
I'm leaving, for sure.
I just can't stay with someone who takes a girlfriend's feeling easily.
You didn't want me to attend your friend's birthday with you because you don't want pay two person's bill, I understand.
It also occurs on your birthday too.
You just don't know how it breaks my heart.
You want me to obey your orders, but do you know it hurts?
How will you feel if someone you loves so much doesn't wants to celebrate his/her birthday with you?
Maybe you think it's ok, because you've yet learn to cherish.
Cherish is not only by giving in.
Love is ain't that easy as you think.

I'll remember how you scream at me, how you push and pull me like a dog.
I'll remember how selfish you are.
Bye.
Happy birthday.
Sunday, November 22, 2009 @ 11:14 PM

"Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken, then to hurt yourself trying to put them back together. "

Much of disappointment.
Much of tears, of screams.
Forgive. Forget?
Forgive willingly? Or just acting cool?
Respond to me, what am I fighting for?

Someone get me a ODM watch please!
I really so addicted to my 修修~
Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 1:46 AM

I just don't understand does consoling me when I'm upset kills you?
Why must must must you yell at me when I'm so upset with something else?
Every little thing is still I'm stubborn, I'm unreasonable.
I don't see my mistakes at all.
Everything I do was just wanting to see you happy.
What you give me as a in return was asking me not to do such things anymore.
You done things, I appreciate every little thing from you.
You don't feel how things being done and not appreciated feels.
Again and again I've been not giving up.
Tolerating and tolerating your temper.
Keeping myself in silent when I know your temper is about to blast.
What about me?
Say hurting words, yelling at me back when I'm throwing my temper.
I don't have the rights to be angry, to throw temper and to do something I like.
Every little thing I get angry with, I'm being unreasonable.
Yes, all me.
This is how to cherish someone.
For not being there when she needs you.
For yelling back when she starts cryings.
For giving a face when she's not in a good mood.
For doing your things when there's time just for we two.
For leaving things aside loved one gave you.
Remembering her wrong, forgetting his wrong.
In short, taking things for granted.

I have thrown away the gift I wanted to give to him on his birthday.
I just don't deserve anything from you.
No matter how hard I try, I can't be a perfect girlfriend to you.
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